Collecting puzzles

'Arden, today is Eddie's last day, will you miss him?' I asked.

'A little bit.' Arden replied.

'What about me? Will you miss me too? A little bit?'

'Nope,’ he paused, 'Very much.'



Today marks the last day of my internship, last day of my diploma life.


I remember when I first decided to study Early Childhood Education, my friends were very surprised. People who knew me, they know that I have low tolerance towards children (I still do)


I remember I asked God again, ‘Are you sure this is for me? You sure?’

He reminded me of how he called Abram out of his country, his father’s household. God asked Abram to leave his comfort zone, the place he grew up in to a place God will show him.



In these two years, I doubted myself a lot, especially in my decision. I sometimes can’t sleep, I worry a lot about my financial needs, but never once I was unable to pay rent, buy food or even travel in kl. It was merely God’s grace and of course, my family support.


God in His Faithfulness He has been so true and so real.
He revealed bit by bit of how he designed me to be in the education sector.

I slowly learned that I enjoy giving parents advice and support; I gradually understand that my heart ache for children who did not receive enough affirmation from home. I gradually understand that this can work.


I finally understood that if God puts you in a place, the outcomes are unnecessarily aligned to our human expectations.

Tracing back to when God actually chose somebody who is as impatient, impulsive, like me to nurture a child’s growth, build characters. This is really not something from me.


The reason why I took time to write this is to tell anybody who is out there, still very confused and afraid etc about the future, that God is watching over you. He designs you differently and will use you differently. Yes, you will have doubts, and I still do, but this God has a designated plan for all of us.



Along the way we are collecting pieces of puzzles, one day, God will patch up all these puzzles we have collected into the glorious picture he has in his mind. Only then we can actually see what He has been doing all the while. We cant see now because we are mere short-sighted humans, we aren’t Him.